Saturday is Halloween, so earlier this week Rich (my husband) and I visited the Spirit Halloween Super Store in Reno.
Holy House of Horrors, Batman! What an awesome showcase for the spookiest day of the year. The store is a dripping plethora of bloody and frightening props, in addition to make-up, costumes and masks featuring superheroes, villains, imaginary, and real-life characters.
People were trying masks on, ripping them off and slamming them on one after another, choosing then discarding in a fast and furious frenzy.
Rich jumped into the fray looking for a hideous look to scare the kids who trick or treat in our neighborhood.
He was going to purchase the baseball cap with skull, until we saw the checkout line.
Curses! It snaked from the front to the back of the store and people were already complaining about the long wait.
Rich decided to stick with his wicked pumpkin-face mask from last year and we left.
Of course being around all those masks and the way people cast them off as quickly as they put them on, got me to thinking about masks worn on a daily basis and by familiar characters.
There is power in hiding behind a mask.
Batman disguises his secret identity and fights crime, striking fear in the guilty.
Darth Vader conceals his disfigurement, uses the mask to breathe, and strikes fear in pretty much everyone who gets near him.
The Zumbanator, my daughter’s made-up heroine, gives fitness flare, fights fat and strikes fear in no one.
We disguise our secret thoughts, conceal our feelings, and fight to survive behind masks of humor, humility, disappointment, indifference, and countless other attitudes and feelings.
We wear “masks” to help us be accepted, protected and find the power to be polite, respectable and civilized.
Taking a deep breath and wearing a mask of confidence gives us the power to buck a system, take a stand, fight for change and be extraordinary.
With enough practice, we no longer wear a mask of confidence, we simply are confident.
Most of my life I wore a mask of dread and feared owning my power. First, because I did not know it was possible and I could not comprehend the power of choices.
Second, because I thought somehow it was wrong. Like it was a violation of humbleness and personal power equaled pride and vanity.
It was easier and more comfortable to just not go there.
Eventually the negative masks grew into anxiety so severe that it damaged my mind, body and spirit.
Hitting rock bottom emotionally, I finally understood that it was time to choose. Either go on as I had been and die, or do something different, take charge of my life and live. At that point, I had nothing to lose.
That choice took me on journey – a quest – of discovering what is personal power, what was blocking it and how everyone is more powerful than we let ourselves accept or believe.
I learned to love and heal myself.
I learned to embrace my capabilities and flaws.
I learned the power is within me, not in the mask.
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